Despair.
It tastes like entropy.
It burns like acid and bile.
I never knew that grief felt so much like
fear.
I had no idea.
None at all.
I have never had faith or religion but I have always found solace and peace and serenity in places.
I found them often in ancient places.
Such a place was in a square that the native people called a
Durba - in region called Patan - in a city named Kathmandu – in a country called Nepal - that has been
reduced now to ruinous heaps.
The earth rumbled then shook with fury.
They tossed buildings and people around until
they all fell over.
They crumbled.
There was devastation and great destruction
and horror and terror.
It is surreal.
People in Kathmandu and all over Nepal are dazed and confused.
They are shocked and horrified.
Since the mighty earthquake three days ago there have been
more than thirty aftershocks.
Many of these have been very powerful.
Hundreds have buildings have fallen over
and thousands have cracked
Roads have buckled and twisted.
It is teeming now with rain.
Thousands are dead and tens of thousands more are
missing. People are wandering the streets hoping to find their love ones.
However hope I can tell you is an exhausting emotion.
It is taxing.
It is terrifying.
When it is combined with fear it is perhaps
the most exhausting of all emotions.
It is like juggling eggs in this
environment.
The hope resides inside the fragile shell.
A single crack and the despair leaks out.
It spills everywhere.
It stains everything.
I feel like I have lost something very important.
I have.
Lost something really important.
It is a selfish emotion given all that the
Nepalese have lost - but I feel broken nevertheless.
I feel helpless and hapless.
I can rebuild all of the schools and I will.
I will make them better than they were but the
temples that I so adored - they can never be replaced.
They were built by artisans a thousand years ago
They are forever gone
They are now just rubble and dust.
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